I'm not a social person. That is, I'm not a sheep. Many years ago I understood that the social world doesn't work the way I was taught and that the social contract is a lie. So I decide my own value system, what matters and what doesn't, and I break the social contract because the other party doesn't comply; it was just a deception to subjugate and exploit me.
I do not adhere to beliefs or ideologies, nor to cultural trends, tribes or groups with special and superficial preferences.
I don't believe any lies, I have no idols, heroes, no one to follow or emulate. Neither football nor movies or TV series can keep me busy. Social media doesn't fool me either. Nobody here cares about people, only about data and getting attention.
And my personal social relationships consist of a few people and my cats.
And I know very well that nobody cares about what I'm saying and that my criticism will bother them, but I don't care about that either.
I hope these spaces will be a little better someday. But for now, for someone like me, they're of very little use compared to the toxicity one has to endure.
I've been in several battles, even real ones, and I don't mind dying. But I do mind living badly.
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